What in the world does it mean to let go? And just because I may have trouble “letting go” of certain things, does it automatically make me a control freak? — Ha! Good questions that have been tossed around in my hemisphere plenty!
Welcome to the 3rd of our He Dances With Me bookclub sessions, where we’ll cover both chapters 3 & 4. Today my dialogue with you will be completely written since I got called in to work, thus not able to get my video shot. (I know, I could have done it earlier, but I kind of like leaving it til the day before because it makes me feel like I’m hanging out with you, but I guess I may have to adjust that. Live and learn!) Let’s get to it!
Chapter 3 starts off a little disjointed, I know, because I go off on this super-spiritual tangent before describing the failure of my marriage:
“My initial reaction during a stressful situation is to be anxious, yet I am very aware of the verse in Philippians 4:6-8: “Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God. And the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.” I just didn’t know how to let go, no matter how many times I quoted the verse to myself. I thought it was all up to me. One of the hardest things I’ve found to do is to rest. Rest meaning to trust implicitly that the God in whom I put my trust knows everything that is happening to me at any given time, and that He has provided all that I need and more. Because when I’m in the middle of a mess or uncertain situation, the last thing I feel like doing is trusting in what I can’t see. It’s crazy right now, so how can I trust it’s going to be ok? Rest is a deliberate, inner decision to trust and have complete confidence in the God who loves me. To take His promises personally, to quiet myself before Him, remind myself of His goodness, and allow His still, small voice to speak to my heart. That is rest. It takes work to rest.”
One of the reasons I went there is because as I recall my failures and disappointments over the years, this Christian issue of learning to ‘let go & let God’ used to bug the heck out of me since I could never seem to get it right. I didn’t understand how you just let something go. Did it mean you just didn’t care anymore, and threw caution to the wind? So, the disintegration of my marriage was the jumping off point into the wild waters of learning what this meant on a very nitty, gritty level I guess. I figured out the hard way that I didn’t have control over what I initially thought I had anyway, so if I was supposed to do this, I needed to learn who it was I was letting go to. My circumstances stunk, and even after my husband moved back in after a year of separation they didn’t really improve; but my understanding of who God is did. He promises that if we seek Him with our whole hearts, we will find Him, and He definitely showed up for me. Everything wasn’t all hunky-dory all of a sudden, but as I shared in chapter 4, God became very real, very close, and very important to me.
My question for you today is: have you experienced this? Have you faced situations where you have made the decision to trust a God you could not see with the outcome? Have you learned, or are you learning, to let go of control that you’ve thought you’ve had in your life? Feel free to comment on anything else that caught your attention in chapters 3 & 4 as well.
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